Merry Christmas 2009!

Our fall harvest has kept both Scott and I very busy. Thankfully we were able to finally put harvest 2009 in the books during the week of Thanksgiving. If you would like to see and read all about it, you can check out my other blog and there you'll find some great pictures and even get to take a ride along in the combine! Challenging is exactly what this past season has been for us, due to weather and some problems with our grain system which dumped out over 1000 bushels of corn on the ground and had our lines that runs under the drive way to the silo's plugged up. Some may ask, um, well, how do you pick up all of that corn? One word says it all, which is SHOVEL! Yes, I said shovel. My FIL and myself shoveled it into the front end loader and then he dumped it back into the semi truck. Yep, thought we would never get to the end of it!!! But, with the good Lord's help, we did and harvest successfully was finished. My husband worked very long hours, in fact for the whole entire time during September, October and November, he was averaging about 90 hours a week and then trying to come home and farm too! The one week, I will admit, I was ready to scream because he put in 104 hours! Prayerfully we got through these months and are now looking forward to some more down time and the holidays coming.

I want to take this special moment and let those of you who have had miracles come into your life in 2009 how happy I am for you and much congratulations. It seems like this has certainly been the year not only for the blogging world, but Scott and I's friends as well. So many babies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For Scott and I, it just seems like we are still struggling. This past summer has been the last time that we have gone to the rec center to work out and to be quite honest with you, I have been grieving over my diagnosis with diabetes. It has been painful to say the least. In the last several months, I have not been truly doing what I should and have gotten away from the good routine that I was on. There have been so many emotions surrounding this diagnosis for me. The one thing is, I just can't believe that at my age I have had to suffer all of the health problems that I have had. And, as much as I know it to be true that there is a reason why for everything, is still hurts. There are days that I feel like I have lost my life and that I am so tired of the continual complications arising for us.

Our journey through infertility keeps getting longer and longer. Time is flying by and I can't believe that we have already been married a year and a half, which means that we have been actively trying for a year and a half. It is with the grace of God that I have gotten this far. The great news is, I have really managed to give our infertility to God and for the most part have had peace in doing so. However, honestly there have been times that I have fallen flat on my face and been dropped to my knees. Although I can say that they have been few and far between and much better since last year, they still do happen for me. I know that we all fall short of the Glory of God and that with His grace we are able to stand again. It may sound crazy to you, but I have even gone through puppy fever because I want a baby so much.

My next OBGYN appointment is in May and I am praying that by then I can lose the needed weight to get down to what she would have me to. It would be great to be able to do that and even lose a little more. Thankfully I have kept some of the weight off that I lost last winter, however, Scott tells me that he has gained his back. Which of course scares me in more ways than one. There is some reason as to why we have taken to food in our lives and have now ended up as we are. The show Biggest Loser makes me want to figure out what really drives me to my addiction and I would like for Scott to figure his out as well. And so, as I remember this beautiful Christmas season and how our Lord came to be with us, I hope that he comes and is able to stay with Scott and I daily and really gives us the focus that we need to answer some of the questions that are out there.

I am praying for all of you on a daily basis. It is my prayer that as Christ is born this season that he continues to be a part of your lives and that his birth is the renewal of faith that He wants us to have in Him. May all of your wishes come true and that the light of Christ be ever present now and always guiding you. I truly hope that this Christmas is a blessing for each and every one of you and that you and your families share in many blessings together.

I would love to share a picture with you of a very sweet little miracle named Cameron, who just so happens to be part of my family. His precious parents waited on him to come into their lives and since then he has certainly been a light for not only them but our family as well, including Scott and I. If you would like to follow the beautiful little miracle, you can check out Lisa's blog. To Shawn and Lisa, your love and support means the world to me and Scott. It is impossible to tell you in words just what you mean to us. Before we were ever born, Christ knew of the special bond that we would have as family and so I have already gotten one of the most precious gifts in life, YOU! We love you so much!!! Thank you for all you do and the awesome Christians that the world sees in you.

From our home to your home, Merry Christmas! May it be as magical and as blessed as the day our Lord came to Earth! We'll be thinking about you and praying for you all!

Hugs and Blessings,